The Cut Podcast: Where’s My Personal F- – -king Teenage Dream?

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, co-host B.A. Parker digs into teen-girl anxiety and everything we’ve all already been thinking since will:

Why does Olivia Rodrigo’s record make one feel similar to this?

Parker speaks to reduce blogger Mia Mercado about
precisely why she feels the album was made especially for the woman
, and Hannah Bondalo, a 19-year-old university student
just who moved viral on TikTok
for sending out sweetheart applications to


experience the melancholy so perfectly described in


. After that reduce producer Noor Bouzidi, a self-proclaimed hater of unfortunate pop songs, is actually eventually persuaded to attend prom.

To hear a lot more about the effectiveness of Olivia Rodrigo’s tracks and how they’ve produced a wave of high-school nostalgia for audience of every age group, listen the following, and subscribe free of charge on
Apple Podcasts
or anywhere you pay attention. You may also look at the complete transcript below, and stream the Spotify playlist we intended for the occurrence, “an upsetting Millennial woman Break Up Playlist”.


Once I was 9, I got lots of desires. I desired to steer a dog sled through a blizzard. I needed to wed Shemar Moore. I desired to spit through the top of the Empire condition strengthening. But above other things, I wanted becoming Jewel. You realize, like ”
I listen to the time clock, it’s 6 a.m


Jewel? I wanted to get her. I would sit in my personal grandparents’ hallway and compose sad, observational people tunes about connections and heartbreak that I knew next to nothing about following sing them in the play ground during recess. The only person i could keep in mind ended up being labeled as “Piecin’ Up My problem,” an existential banger about getting the items of living. Songs turned into the sound recording to imaginary misery that I anxiously desired. I really couldn’t hold off becoming a teen and go through the span and sadness of liking a boy who had an auto.

And thank heavens, I becamen’t the sole weirdo whom used to do this.


We played a track that I wrote about a man facing him. When he stopped liking myself or perhaps being attentive to me, I was love, “i will play a track prior to you.” And that I pretended the tune was not about him.


As a teenager, Cut blogger
Mia Mercado
might possibly be in her room pining, listening to Michelle department.


The Spirit Area. T

cap purple CD. [It’s] a striking CD. I paid attention to that. Ran it natural. Merely wrecked it. I


Michelle department undoubtedly. Anything from the basic album. You know, “Everywhere.”

Cuz you’re every where in my experience …

—Michelle Department,

“Every Where”



I distinctly remember, within my area, enjoying a track by Lindsay Lohan.

Cannot breathe without you. Can’t dream without you. Actually let me know that it’s over.

—Lindsay Lohan,




It actually was a song called “Over.” I would personally imagine this guy that We appreciated in my course while I would personally listen like,

Tell me that it is more than.


Not that you are together.


We’re not together.


[As if] you have been with each other now its over. So now you can think that level of depression rather than the level of sadness of

We will not be collectively.

Yeah, I did that, as well. Used to do a little bit of, at the minimum

, easily dated this person that I never ever spoke to, then we can easily break up and then i really could feel unfortunate for a separate reason.


The key feature of most these teenage evenings spent enjoying heartbreak tracks within bed rooms is the fact that Mia and that I happened to be nostalgic for encounters that individuals

never really had:

men we were too timid to speak with, basketball video games we were as well cool to attend, college dances the spot where the punch was never ever spiked like inside movies.

Which is exactly how 19-year-old Hannah Bondalo felt this year whenever she very first heard


, Olivia Rodrigo’s universally adored teenager angst break up record album.

I got my personal driver’s license last week …

—Olivia Rodrigo,

“drivers permit”



I was always following this lady and seeking at the woman Instagram covers and was actually wanting to know like,

Oh, when is she browsing launch this?

Subsequently 2021 happened and she circulated “drivers permit”. I became love,

Wow, this is exactly likely to be a great ready.


But she cannot actually, truly feel the record album since it’s truly meant to be skilled, due to the fact, alas, Hannah is actually unmarried.


I became sitting using my roommate, and she’s in a relationship, also. Therefore I was like, “Man, you will want to split up together with your date and after that you should tune in to this


album to check out exactly how that goes for you, because I can’t enjoy it.”


That is whenever Hannah came up with a unique idea.


She’s similar, “I’m not browsing ask my sweetheart to break up with me. He’s never likely to accomplish that.” Also because she stated it, I happened to be love,

Possibly I’ll do it me. Possibly i will only have a fake union.


She decided to concoct a relationship to


the agony of Olivia’s record album




Does anyone wanna big date myself then separation with me? Making sure that I’m able to pay attention to Olivia Rodrigo’s record and appreciate it?


We released my Snapchat and I requested folks, “Does anyone want to enter into a three-day relationship beside me because my personal roomie’s perhaps not probably do so and she is in a happy connection. So there are any takers?” I really had programs arrive afterwards. I didn’t also believe I was going to should do an application procedure, because when We posted my Snapchat, I happened to be want,

No one’s ever-going to reply.

And then I got five individuals, six individuals react straight back saying,

“I’ll do it, we’ll do it, I’ll take action.”

This was the application process: initial concern was actually “are you currently alive?” The next concern had been, “is it possible to go on two times? One digital following one in person before tuesday?”


She made a list about by herself such as the simple fact that she actually is a company major… two times. She cries throughout the film


. She tends to make impulsive choices. And she’s going to split up with you in three days.


Precisely why 3 days?


It absolutely was simply the timing of “everything great will come in three days.” In addition, I found myself active, I found myself extremely busy.


My personal schedule was therefore packed and that I ended up being want,

I’m not going to have enough time to do an actual relationship, so 3 days is right enough.


So just how very long did it elevates to select?


It took three many hours. We virtually had been up until about 12:30 each morning determining.


She decided to go with men known as Sheel, who had been a friend-of-a-friend that she’d recognized around campus. And Hannah liked him, because the guy took the application procedure seriously.


Like, instantly. Right after the guy stated, “Good night, Hannah, thanks for taking committed to examine my personal application. I do want to state it really is my personal pleasure as part of this strict program procedure. If you need other things from myself, please let me know. Thanks a lot when planning on taking committed to read through this information, and I also desire to hear away from you shortly. Best, Sheel” which had been just like the hook, range, and sinker. I was like

I Am Aware he’s not a company significant but …


The morning of these large go out, Sheel chose Hannah right up in his car.


Once we saw him, the guy unsealed the car doorway for my situation and he gave me a rose and it matched my dress. And I also was like,

This is actually the best beginning to an ideal day previously.


And additionally they performed the relationship-y circumstances they might within 3 days. They stayed up til 2 a.m. chatting over Zoom. They spent a glorious time making TikTok party movies, riding scooters, and consuming slushies.


We were merely driving around, enjoying songs, speaking. We are merely on the same wavelength at this point. I pointed out to him, “Oh, by the way, don’t forget, you have to break-up with me later.” And then he ended up being like, “I got it, don’t worry. I am aware the master plan.”


Was there ever a moment in time the place you were like

Oh, maybe I like he



I suppose! It’s more of that way tendency of like,

Oh, I absolutely buzz with this individual.

I’m not sure whether or not it will ever become like a real-real commitment someday, however it was actually just one of those



And Sunday evening came.


It had been literally like 11 p.m. now. The guy sent myself an


and I was actually like, “Understanding this?!” And then he’s like, “It is myself breaking up with you.” The topic line says “its you, maybe not myself.” After which in the body on the message says, “cannot choose me, do not select me personally, never love me personally. Bye.”


And therefore ended up being that. He dumped the woman after three days just like Hannah had planned.

Do you ever feel effective in becoming separated with?


In my opinion I was very effective becoming separated with, because We realized that I did it to my self, but on top of that, it nevertheless type harm just a little. Imagine experiencing all of that simply for a random dude to email you. Plus it ended up being a

Gray’s Structure

research as well nonetheless, that has been amusing, but also disrespectful. I suppose I meant to get injured, but not in that way. Because, guy, we invested quality time together and you’re simply going to send

two traces of a breakup?


Thus yeah, you could potentially say that, surprisingly, the research worked: heartbreak achieved. Hannah went viral on TikTok after posting films of the woman test, and now an incredible number of adolescents are mentally purchased a sort-of-pretend 3-day union scored to Olivia Rodrigo’s “traitor.”

I assume you probably didn’t hack, you’re still a traitor.

—Olivia Rodrigo,




The caption was, “he isn’t a traitor but he’s the greatest characteristics.”


For perhaps the commitment is actually gonna stay pretend, you never know?


He’s really residing throughout the hallway from me.


Hold Off,

exactly what



We published the TikTok after which a day later I was like, “hold off, in which are you currently residing again?” After which the guy said this building that My home is. And that I ended up being like, “which is insane. What floor?” Then the guy stated the system quantity. And I had been like, “which


over the hallway from me.” So we’re probably going doing dinners and things and enjoyable situations. We mentioned putting a water slip between the doorways, and enjoyable things like that.


Oh, Hannah.


We’re good friends. We are great



Hannah desired to have the common heartache of a teen-dom, but fleeting and arranged it was. Producing it was better than devoid of it at all. Also it turns out many people remain on the lookout for that sensation.

Following the break, a zoomer and a millennial enter a prom.

Whenever Olivia Rodrigo’s


record album arrived there is plenty of anticipation.


So several additional article authors and editors within Cut happened to be wishing one another a “Happy Olivia Rodrigo record album launch day to your as well as just who observe.”


Mia Mercado, once again.


We are all avove the age of … is she 18? All of us are avove the age of 18. I became enjoying it like,

Okay, precisely why was we regarding these songs being about issues that We have maybe not experienced in over a decade?


Yes, Olivia Rodrigo is actually 18 and has now gained followers for revealing all of her large emotions in tune in addition to backstory in it. Individuals have realized that most that following is actually a healthy and balanced decade taken off being an adolescent. There have been each one of these memes how millennials had co-opted Olivia’s brand-new record. Thirty-year-olds happened to be shouting ”
Where’s my personal screwing teenage dream?”

But the reason why? failed to we become enough of this whenever we happened to be

real melodramatic teenagers? Will it be Peter Pan nostalgia? Or perhaps the undeniable fact that a lot of people were slingshotted back in their particular childhood bed rooms during pandemic, watching

Dawson’s Creek



on streaming internet sites? Tend to be we full-on regressing? For me it seems lots further than that.

Cuz Everyone loves men and women I don’t like

And that I dislike every song we compose

And that I’m perhaps not cool, and that I’m maybe not wise

And I cannot actually parallel park

All I did had been take to my greatest.

—Olivia Rodrigo,


It absolutely was very cathartic to listen an 18-year-old talking how an 18-year-old speaks and doing it in an even more eloquent method than I could have ever done, and most likely still is capable of doing.


I feel variety of outdated with the pining tunes, those that are like, “so why do they pit ladies against each other? I gotta throw my phone throughout the place” or “brutal.” I could parallel playground, but I can nevertheless feel it.




. What? you are the only person that i understand which can really parallel playground.


I am therefore sorry.


Oh, you shouldn’t apologize in my experience. Apologize to Olivia.


Olivia’s songs are categorically teenager and earnest, positive. Nonetheless they also slash deep down into some thing old and pronounced that nonetheless stings. Like the tune “jealousy, jealousy.” She sings about perhaps not wanting to examine herself to others, nonetheless it weighs in at on her.

I kinda want to put my personal phone throughout the area

‘influence all I see are ladies too-good to be real

With paper-white teeth and best systems

Wish I didn’t care

—Olivia Rodrigo,
“jealousy, jealousy”


When I ended up being a teenager, i did not have the language yet for my insecurity and outrage whenever

United States Weekly

would distribute Britney Spears’s and Paris Hilton’s weights close to their particular names. Or even the knowing that additional adolescent ladies were not my personal opponent or my competitors. Hell, i am however grappling with dark and brown women maybe not approved similar coming of age that many white teenage ladies get to have idolized. Teen women of shade aren’t often allowed the grace of purity or perhaps the archetypal fantasy of high school. I still have the huge emotions I had at 17. But I’m able to only micro-dose them once in some time. It’s simply wonderful is reminded by Olivia that people emotions remain there and they’re appropriate.

As well as grownup Mia, which was in addition just what drew the lady into this type of make of teenage-girl melancholy. Olivia becoming Filipina meant Mia could vicariously have the heartache that she failed to experience expanding up. Nevertheless now, she will easily visualize by herself in Olivia’s fight boots.


Yeah! we, also, am Filipino, and so element of me ended up being like,

Yes. This really is for my situation at the same time. Im ten years avove the age of you, but it is for me personally.

I didn’t go out people in highschool, but I completely had crushes on a million folks. And that is the heartbreak that I’m drawing from.


The notion of weeping on to the ground listening to teen angst does not actually ever truly go-away. Not. A week ago, I’d a belt-out to Brandy’s ”
Have You
” that did my personal soul great. However some individuals are resistors to the cathartic howl of pop music yearning. They have not ever been inclined to stare at their particular ceiling and pay attention to ”
” of the Cranberries on a limitless circle. Men and women like my fellow producer, Noor Bouzidi.


I do

perhaps not

listen to separation records. I am type allergic to that particular variety of music.


Short reputation of all of our lady Noor. She actually is a 22-year-old reformed metalhead who had been the moderator of a very popular One Direction tumblr. But for some reason she actually is also cool to sing “drivers license” with me.


Obviously i have believed the things which cause people to need to write break up songs. And that I’m just like,

Exactly why do you need that?

Yeah, its section of your art, drawing from painful circumstances, but exactly why is it a


that individuals sit-in their particular feelings and wallow during the despair?


Perhaps you have listened to any Alanis Morissette?


I’ll Google the girl because I’m not sure just who she is.


Oh, my personal God, Noor. Okay, precisely what do you pay attention to?


I’ll put-up Nancy Ajram. simply because she’s such as the queen of Arabic pop music. That is the sort of music that i love to tune in to anytime i am really unfortunate.

Ya tabtab


Yay ullanat ghayar taliih

Anaz ‘al awalah

Mah kullihamuz zayardi

—Nancy Ajram,
“Ya Tabtab Wa Dalla”


What exactly is she saying?


To tell the truth, I do not actually know. I’m not sure what


is actually. It’s just an audio I think. I’m exactly like … i cannot understand it. Simply head empty, like i am only vibing, you understand.


So obviously what you’re stating within the song, “Ya Tatab Wa Dallaa” suggests either “we baby” or “spoil”


Yeah, yeah. That’s what that implies.


Or, “he tells me I’ve altered on him, I have disappointed, my mood increases, but all the guy cares about is exactly how to kindly him.”


Exactly what? Are you significant?




I imagined it was like a ”
Watermelon Sugar
” types of feeling. Like, you are merely falling in love and it’s really enjoyable.




But it’s like … ooh. Its more tense than that.


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